"If only." Sabine finally put down the knife and grabbed a glass of water. After a few sips, she shook her head. "On second thought, maybe I should take that drink," she said, but knew if she didn't push on through, she'd never finish it, and she did need Molly's help.
"But it's more complicated than that. He came here from the day he confessed his love, before he talked to Jean. I came from about a month and a half after that. We promised we'd find a way to stay in each other's lives, but at home we hadn't found it yet. We've been avoiding each other. So even though I told him Jean forgave him, he feels guilty still. And even though I don't blame him for us not having found a way to talk yet, it means I've still dealing with the hurt of his rejection, even if I never really wanted him to choose me in the first place."
She took a breath and another sip of water, trying to settle her emotions enough to finish. It shouldn't be so hard. The problem itself was simple. But the solutions weren't, and she needed Molly to understand. Sabine took refuge in programming the replicator to use her credits and supply a firm pork-flavored tofu while she said, "The worst part is that we have a psi-bond. At home, his wife was suppressing it. Without her here..." Sabine shrugged and turned to meet Molly's gaze finally. "It's already almost as strong as my bond with Shola, and it has some very challenging side effects."
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Date: 2016-07-30 11:18 pm (UTC)"But it's more complicated than that. He came here from the day he confessed his love, before he talked to Jean. I came from about a month and a half after that. We promised we'd find a way to stay in each other's lives, but at home we hadn't found it yet. We've been avoiding each other. So even though I told him Jean forgave him, he feels guilty still. And even though I don't blame him for us not having found a way to talk yet, it means I've still dealing with the hurt of his rejection, even if I never really wanted him to choose me in the first place."
She took a breath and another sip of water, trying to settle her emotions enough to finish. It shouldn't be so hard. The problem itself was simple. But the solutions weren't, and she needed Molly to understand. Sabine took refuge in programming the replicator to use her credits and supply a firm pork-flavored tofu while she said, "The worst part is that we have a psi-bond. At home, his wife was suppressing it. Without her here..." Sabine shrugged and turned to meet Molly's gaze finally. "It's already almost as strong as my bond with Shola, and it has some very challenging side effects."